Nostalgia

Nostalgia--

1. A bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past.
2. The condition of being homesick; homesickness.

These days I find myself feeling Nostalgic. Performing Nostalgic behaviors like reaching far back into my history and wondering. Wondering what life would be like if I had made different choices and taken a different path years ago. Where would I be, who would I be with what decisions would have made things different. Nostalgia is a funny thing, because it takes you places that you don't even remember until something brings them up, a smell, a place, a look, a birthday or a person. Sometimes early in life people or things have their very own place in your memory log. That special place is sometimes connected to an emotion, and when something triggers that specific emotion then Nostalgia occurs.

This Nostalgia sometimes brings you to reach back and wonder if passing up certain opportunities would have made your life different. If you let go of something for the greater good of someone else will somehow make your life in the future better. If letting go of something you really wanted so easily, because it was the right thing to do would somehow assist you with reaping the rewards in the future. However, after some time passes you are still wondering, was it worth it? Will Nostalgia come back to haunt you over and over again and again year after year? Nostalgia mostly is just a pause button on life only for play to be pressed again and your back to your regularly scheduled program.

Nostalgia, a funny thing it is.......