Celebrating my two year Wedding Anniversary 05/13/14

Marriage, a union between two souls who have been looking for each other for a lifetime.  A anniversary, a point in time to remember why you joined as one, and to remember to love now and forever.

Love on this day my Wedding Anniversary.

That Day..

The sun really shone that day.  It was the day I met the future.  The day I realized that the life I had was not really life at all.  The day I realized what love really felt like.  It was a feeling no one could describe.  Even these words now do not do it justice.  The unrestricted happiness that comes, that we are not capable of showing as adults.  The carefree mentality.  The compassion and love. That day was beautiful and each day thereafter has been just as bright.  Even on days that the sun does not shine I still see a sparkle.  It was the day I met an angel.  This is an angel on earth; this angel is my son, a blessing that I will forever be grateful.  Each day I give thanks and I take no moment for granted.  Every second is worth a lifetime.  That day, it was certainly a great day!

Ealia L. Wiley

Freedom(This song has gotten through me a lot in the past 10 years)

Freedom
By Ashanti
Said I'm gone close my eyes
Said I'm gon' live my life
Despite what you think
I'm gone be free I'm a be me

See I ain't never think I would have a situation where the people around me just envy I must replace them
See I always thought the people that watch me grow
Would want to see me blow fa'sho but little did I know
They ain't never really wanna see me smiling.
They couldn't take the fact that I was really shining
And in my heart I knew they was wishing I was stop
Cause they don't want me to rise and be on top.
And all that jealousy and hate
Can be right in front of your face
And it's gone hurt for you to see
But it ain't your fault just let it be

So I'm gone close my eyes
And I'm gone live my life
Despite what you think Im'a be free cause Im'a be me.

See everybody wanna have something to talk about
So they pointing their fingers and always running their mouths.
No matter how you try to satisfy someone else giving so much of yourself yo love but it's never enough.
The more you give them the more want they ain't happy
And they don't see all you do to make 'em happy
They don't appreciate it till you walk away
But you don't want to hear by now it's too late.
And all that jealousy and hate
Can be right in front of your face
And it's gone hurt for you to see
But it ain't your fault just let it be.

So I'm gone close my eyes
And I'm gone live my life
Despite what you think Im'a be free cause Im'a be me.

What they don't understand is that Im'a keep livin my life and surviving
Im'a keep pushing and striving and climbing and grinding
Cause ain't no time to be crying I been providing with the strength to carry my way
And Im'a be ok cause I'm gone live my life my way
And u can say what u wanna say it wont affect the way I'm living I'm winning by being free again

So I'm gone close my eyes
And I'm gone live my life
Despite what you think Im'a be free cause Im'a be me.

Kandi "I Just Know"

Missing the real things in life

I miss the days of honest friendship before lines got blurred.
I missed the days of being able to pick up the phone and call to talk.
I miss the life pep talks.
I miss the world I lived in which I was free.
I miss being able to love freely without consequence.
I miss being able to be open about everything.
I miss truth, honesty, and real talk.
I miss being called a young lady.
I miss the old life I had where meeting new people was easy to do.
I miss not being afraid to pack my bags and go anywhere.
I miss dreaming of a reality that I wished would come true.
I miss true love in the barest sense.
I miss knowing that a soul mate was a real thing.
I miss living in today and not worrying about tomorrow.
I miss being sane and crazy at the same time yet being loved for those very qualities.
I hate hiding behind the fake smiles and half-assed laugh.
I miss being respected and praised.
I missed feeling importance.
I miss that who made me realize life was a choice and the choices we made we had to be strong enough to stick with.
I miss you friend of life.

Journey

Journey

Realizing that the pain you felt for so long is a means to an end.
Realizing that the path you walk is the choice you made
Realizing that family is the best gift God could have ever given you.
Realizing that the cards we were dealt, play out better if you play them blind.
Realizing that the plans you make never pan out the way you envisioned.
Realizing that procrastination is the road to nowhere.
Realizing that holding on to the bad news on increases the sting upon deliverance.
Realizing that everyone else’s agenda is not meant for you to compare.
Realizing that today’s hour will always be different than tomorrows.
Realizing that giving freely is the only true way to give.
Realizing that you will receive nothing in return gives you greater peace than you planned.
Realizing that jumping on the bandwagon makes you a true follower.
Realizing that having your opinion speaks louder than having your own style.
Realizing that life’s consequences are dreams we had that we couldn’t remember.
Realizing that being positive wards off the evil before you see it coming.
Realizing that you will always be a better friend to someone else then they are to you.
Realizing that the light you follow is your own star shining.
The Journey of life…

Haunted Memories

Haunted Memories
Life keeps going but you keep realizing
Memories of a past that once could have been
Lost thoughts of a happiness you long to forget
Knowing that what’s meant to happen does
Control is not always something you have
Fading clouds, daunting shadows, living breathing

Haunted Memories
Space, dreams, pictures, all fallacies of what is not
Days are slow moving, looking back at what was before
Time moving forward but your mind standing still
Air, Scene, Water, Canvas

Haunted Memories
Grasping for what could have been yours
Hoping the future holds what satisfies
Desires of the presence of Presents a Gift
Life is, Real, Time is fast moving, Here is your card
Let go, leave behind, Future is Forward
Stop living in your Haunted Memories

By Ealia L. Payne
April 22, 2011

Lifes Goods

Life’s Fallacies

Life is long and short at the same time.
It’s the little things that make it all worth it.
The friends that you have not seen in years yet when you see them all life’s problems seem to go away.
The bitter sweetness of a face that once brought contentment.
The nostalgia of a time when childhood worries were simplistic at best.
A time when you didn’t truly understand the complication of the world’s interruptions.
A time when your eyes saw no color but the hand of a friend.
A time when skipping down the street from school was all it took to make you happy.
A time when the site of a yellow school bus made you think of delight.
Life is long and short at the same time.
Short lived are the days where cheerfulness comes in the morning.
Long lived are the days of 8 to 5, and 6 to 10.
Short lived are the days of sitting on the front step and building a sandbox.
Long lived are the days of bills, bills, can you pay my bills.
Short lived is life, long lived is the bliss you can get from life by remembering.
Remembering when, childhood fancies brought tears to your eyes; a time when street dreams were all we had to reach for.
Long lived are the stars beyond the sky you have to attain.
Status, beauty, power, life’s idiosyncrasies.
Life is long and short at the same time.


By: Ealia L. Payne
November 16, 2010

Its been a while

Hello,

My fellow creative minds, I know it has been a minute since I have posted, had to take a brief hiatus for life issues. However, I am back, I have recently been insipired to blog again, don't fret I have a ton of material that I have written and just need to post, so please comment on what you see in the next couple of weeks, let me know how you like it, I may soon be heading to an open poetry mic near you, I will post details once I get up the nerve to actually get in front of a mic and an audience to get my Maya Angelou on.

Keep the creative juices flowing!

-Lia

Its Time

It’s Time

Time to stop being scared,
Time to turn your fears into experiences,
Time to open your arms and enjoy and express love,
It’s Time!
Time to step up and be counted,
Time to be proud of the DNA that makes up you,
Time to let go of the past and look forward to the future,
It’s Time!
Time to live in the present since it is after all a gift,
It’s time to bring your old creativity to the for front,
It’s time to be alive and enjoy life,
It is time to stop crying and start smiling.
It’s Time!
Time to breathe in and breathe out and realize that your breath breads life,
Your breath is precious your breath,
Your breath, your breath gives yourself joy and peace.
It’s Time!

Ealia L. Payne
09/23/10

Angels They Fly

Angels they Fly

Angels they fly open arms to the sky
Living unseen amongst the sea and land
Taking life lightly as they step, enjoying every moment without needing a reason
Angels they fly with their arms open wide
Loving the world with a heart unsold
Giving there every breath to a new day of choices and decisions and choices and decisions
Will today be the day, my wings shall be granted
Understanding that life one day will be as beautiful as it may
Longing for the world of peace and calmness and peace and calmness
Looking for the ocean to end, the sun to shine brighter
Looking for the world beyond the sky knowing there is something greater
Angels they fly with their open arms to the sky, Angels they fly with their arms open wide.
Cry’s are only tear drops to the sadness of wanting to one day be that angel that flies.
Keep your arms open wide, open your eyes to the sky, feel the wings on your side and be our Angel that flies.



By: Ealia L. Payne
09/09/10

Moving Forward

Well its been awhile since I last wrote. I feel like I have had a lot changes I have been through in the last 6 months or so, some realizations that I already new, started tapping into a lot of things I used to love to do but didnt have time, started to appreciate my time on this beautiful land we call earth, and decided to move forward with love and happines. The happiness to know that everything I choose to do was a path given to me already before it was a thought. So moving forward i will walk swiftly...

"Moving forward as the distance a car glides down a highway ona road trip.

Always moving forward knowing that everything tht you pass will either be gone forever only a glare in the distance. Or it may just be something you will pass on your journey back, form whatever adventure you are going on.

Moving forward only knowing that everything you used to love and forgot , will come back again, sometimes life just has you take a quick detour. Just go with the flow and know you will return again one day."

Thus, in my life this applies because I have gotten back my love of cooking and baking no less. I love the way food makes people happy, especially when they know you made it for them, to enjoy and just be happy for a moment. My joy comes from seeing and making other people happy.

I will keep moving on in my life, new adventures, new things to learn and new life to live, just being me.........

http://www.kolorfulkupcakes.com/

Help for Haiti

In this time of need for Haiti, it is time to stop being selfish and stop thinking about what you don't have, beacuse I guarantee if you are remotley human you can see that your need is a far cry away from the need of those in Haiti.

My prayers are with the people, if I could pack up and give a hand myself I would. Instead I will continue to look for opportunities to help from the U.S.

Realization #2

I have recently realized that love hurts like you would not beleive.
But it is how you handle that hurt which will decide how you will go forward.
Heartbreak is but a part of life and it makes you more compassionate and stronger than you would ever believe.

So when love comes your way do not push it away at an attempt to keep yourself guardeded and safe. In the words of jane Seymour "If your heart is always open love will always find its way in" and love is one emotion that everyone should expereince.

So play hard, but Love even harder!

Choices

Life is about Choices.
You can choose to live it or you can chooses to not.
You can choose to enjoy it or you can choose to not.
You can choose to love or you can choose to lust.
You can choose to learn or you can choose to not.

Choices, Choices, Choices
We make are own choices in life.
Though there is a higher power that is guiding you to the right choice,
When you come to that fork in the road, you ultimately choose which direction to go.
You choose whether you want to crawl, walk, or run down the road you choose.
Your pace is but only a detection of how soon you will get to the end.
Once your own that road turning back is never an option.
You have to stick with your decision and keep pushing forward.
You may come to high tides, gusty winds, dangerous thunderstorms etc.
It is how you come out of the difficult path when the sun shines that matters.

So make your choice and stick with it.
Many people are sad for various reasons, only they don’t understand that they have the power to not do those things.
Emotions are but a futile attempt for attention.
So for your sake choose to be happy.

You choose and make the choice that you can live with, no matter what the sun always shines after the rain.

A Calm is Coming

Calm is Coming

Though today the road may seem tough,
There may be rocks even boulders you can see up ahead,
Just keep faith that calm is coming.

Though your life’s choices may not seem so good right now,
You may even feel like you created the problem
Just look to the sky and know that calm is coming.

Even though you thought your life was perfect,
Now you realize that everything is falling apart,
Close your eyes and hold on tight because calm is coming.

The road may get bumpy before it smoothens out,
Life’s challenges, may seem harder than you anticipated,
Know that he will never give you more than you can handle,
A test is happening and it is your challenge to learn and move on,
Just hold on, calm is coming.

Even hope may seem but futile, When with troubles you’re beset, But remember you are facing Just what other men have met;You may fail, but fall still fighting,Don’t give up, whatever you do; See it through, because a calm is coming.

Realization #1

Realization #1

Sometimes when you think you are doing the right thing for someone else, in actuality you are hurting your self. Nine times out of ten the thing you are doing for someone else is an exception, for if they were put in the same situation they would not do the same for you. So if you heart is urging you to do what is right for you, than do it. Life is short, for in years you will realize that, that thing you let go is gone, and you will never fully have it back in your possession because you let it go, and forever more will your thoughts towards your own feelings will become secondary. Always say what you really mean, and don’t let your mind’s power overpower your heart.

Please you first and everyone one else second, this is the key to your true happiness.

Drama

Drama

Drama is defined as “a composition in verse or prose intended to portray life or character or to tell a story usually involving conflicts and emotions through action and dialogue and typically designed for theatrical performance”.

I know all to well about Drama. As I have had my fair share of it early in life. I have had Life, Drama, Baby Mama Drama, Car Drama, Family Drama, Relationship Drama, and Friend Drama. So if the above is the actual definition of drama why must it find me? I did not set out on life to be neither an actress nor a director.
If this thing called Drama is supposed to be played out on a stage, why does it find me in real life.
Is this a lifetime movie, willing for an actual end?
Shall the words that are used to describe an emotion be so fruitfully played out that the real reality can not be found?
I have a life to live and a family to tend too.
I have got stars to catch and love to nurture.
I did not ask for you Drama, so go your own way.
Please never find me again in another day.
So I say to you this word Drama leave me alone, find another stage to play.
My curtain has closed and there is no room for you to stay.
The lights have been shut off and the applause has stopped, there is no room for you Drama in this Lot.
Go back to your dressing room and take off your costume.
Remove the makeup and tell me what you see.
Is it a face so cruel you can’t even see?
But first you must walk the line of the real life where, battles are fought and friendships are lost, and love is UN recognizable.
Drama is inevitable but knowing the real from the fake is where truth is recognized.

Michael Jackson truly fulfilled his Dash

I thought i would re post this thought provoking poem. As I watched the MJ memorial yesterday. All I could think is this man truly fulfilled his "DASH". You could tell by the speeches, the fans, the family and the tears that welled up in the eyes of those whom never even met him. he will always be remembered and forever in our hearts.

The Dash Poem - by Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning to the end
He noted that first came the date of her birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years
For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth.
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.
For it matters not how much we own;
The cars, the house, the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.
So think about this long and hard.
Are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.
If we could just slow down enough
To consider what’s true and real
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we’ve never loved before.
If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while.
So, when your eulogy is being read
With your life’s actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?
©1996 Linda Ellis

When a Woman's Over it..

When a woman is over it, it is a sign that you better shape up or ship out.
When a woman is over it she shows signs of displeasure.
When a woman is over it she calls you on your BS before you even think of it.
When a woman is over she knows the lie you are about to tell before you tell it.
When a woman is over it, she lets you know with her subtle glaring eyes and the sucking of her teeth.
When a woman is over it she shows no sign of emotion.
When a woman is over she no longer cares about anything in the world but herself.
When a woman is over it you better steer clear of any possible confrontation.
When a woman is over it, if you want to keep her you better pull out all the stops.
When a woman is over roses can’t help and neither will apologies.
When a woman is over it life for you becomes sensitive.
When a woman is over it her eyes are dry not enough emotion to cry.
Once a woman no longer cry’s she has past the line of caring.
Once a woman decides she is done with your childish ways, there is no return.
What’s done is done, what’s said is said; when a woman is over it you have lost the best thing you could have ever had in your life. For she knows that it is not her loss it’s yours.