Lemons are Positive!!

The old saying is that “When life gives you lemons you make lemonade”. So how do we apply this thought provoking phrase to most people’s lives?

Positive Movement. There is this thing going on around the world it seems well, at least on the blogs, and twitter. People are obsessed with taking the energy from our new president and invoke change and positivity through their lives. I believe it all started with the phrase above. So, in thinking whether life is fair or if you were dealt a bad had in life. There are two things for sure. There will always be someone better than you, in a better situation and that person will always stay positive. However, there is also someone whom was dealt a worse hand in a worse situation then you but somehow they stay positive. So why is it that you can’t?

In every situation that I have been in recently where I have been down and out, I found that staying positive and thinking that things are not that bad I always seem to come out stronger. Now whether that is because of a divine intervention or because I “Choose” to be positive is up for discussion.

Whatever it is and no matter how depressed you are just remembering, lemons are always better with a smile and a little sugar.

Stay Positive and Choose to be happy starting today!

St. Patricks Day...Huh???

What is St. Patrick’s Day all about? Well according to Wikipedia they say it’s... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/St._Patrick's_Day .

After reading that what do you get? Yep I don’t really understand either but all I know is you are suppose to wear green and get drunk.

Nothing too deep or introspective about this blog entry except that I am kind of trying to figure out what it’s all about. Apparently starting drinking at noon and then go to church (since supposedly it is a Catholic holiday), and then they leave mass and go drinking again.

Ahh the luck of the Irish I guess. But the whole drinking and going to mass thing does not seem to make much sense to me.

Anywho, for whatever it is worth, Happy St Patrick’s day I hope you wore your green!!

Smile from a Stranger

Smile from a Stanger

Its funny how you can be feeling down one day and a smile from a stranger can bring you to life.
That was me this morning, just driving along to work not feeling very whole and wanting the day to be over before it could even begin. I looked over as I was reaching for something in my passenger seat. When I looked over the women in the car next to me simply smiled. I wondered why she smiled but maybe it is because she had some joy that she wanted to share and I just happened to be the recipient of her heart warming smile.

So try it one day, try to just smile. For your smile to a stranger could change their whole world.
Thank you stranger for turning my day around with a simple smile.

Reason, Season or a Lifetime

Everyone has gotten the forward one time or another that explains why people come in to your life. Basically it is for a reason a season or a lifetime. Typically I read this forward say "Awwww" about the person whom forwarded it to me initially and never really take the time to analyze it.

Well the time has come and today I received this forward yet again, but this time I actually read and analyzed it. I started thinking about all the associates, friends and of course lovers (both whom broke my heart and I broke theirs), that have come in and out of my life over my lifetime.

I realized that these three analyzations actually have some meaning and carry some depth. Let's anaylze some of the persons (whom shall remain nameless) in my life.

First and foremost their were the friends:

The Best Friends -> I have the friends whom I thought would be my friends forever. The ones from my school years, both elementary and Junior High. Those friends helped keep me honest with me. I can recall back to those days and realize that those were the days where I did not really think of what people thought of me I was just me. I loved all my friends, and they are the ones whom helped me shape my values and morals. They kept me real and fun loving me. They were here for a Reason. Most are no longer a regualar part of my life (due to me moving around so much). However, some I have managed to keep in contact with just to touch base and give me a bit of nostalgia and bring me back to the ground and remember what is important.

The Friends (Associates) --> These were the people whom came in my life by chance, either thorough work, by best friends or by family. These people often were not best friend material however they had a purpose. Some of their purposes I still have not figured out but most are pretty clear cut. They have mostly brought me a more realistic view of what life is and always has been. They were the people that kinda made me open my eyes and realize that life is not always warm cookies and milk (not that I had that but you know what I mean). Life is and alwyas will be what you make of it and you can choose what you want to do with it. Life is not fair and never will be and you have to fight for everything you want out of it. Life is just undetermined until you fill in the painting with color. The people who taught me these things are mostly still around to bring me a dose of reality every now and again but for the most part they were here for a season. And as we all know every year that season comes back around each time different yet always the same.

The Lovers --> These people are a mix. Sometimes they came in to my life for a reason, sometimes a season and if I am lucky a lifetime. The lovers are those people whom intertwine a little bit of everything. A little dose of trueness a dash of reality and a big dose of fairytale love. These people helped me to realize that love is what it is. Most are gone and only one true love is here for a lifetime.

So with that said I hope that next time you get that forward you will read a little more into it and analyze the people in your life. Believe me you may come a cross a true dose of reality.

Tears for Love.......

Tears for Love



One moment can change the way you see, so easily
Pain comes in many dimensions
The release of that pain is what gives us that first drop
Rolling down like wind from the mountains
It drop, it falls, it is a tear for love

Like a wave in the ocean it flows
Naturally it becomes calming
Peacefully and ongoing as constant as a heartbeat
You feel it, good or bad it happens..Then joy
Joy for your tears of love

Loving the way you feel
Loving why you feel
Loving how you feel
The warmth, the relaxing the tear
It drops, it falls, it is a tear for love

Mostly it is in bad times
But sometimes in good times
You feel its presence and enjoy its comforting
These tears are for love….

Let them drop; let them fall for we know they are tears of love.


By: Ealia L. Payne
April 2, 2007

Poem I Wrote for my Grandmother Upon Her Passing 3/13/07...

When The Time Comes.....



Rejected, distressed, depressed.Alone, afraid, regrets come forward. The memories flow, the sounds and pictures fade.

The dreams you carry forwardRelevant but fading slowly. Feelings open…letting your self go. Peaceful paradise from beyond the stars. A fresh oil painting wet to touch.Eventually it dries now just a picture. Losing love, love, L.O.V.E. Communication is open, speak the last words. Mouth the last feeling “L.O.V.E U”. Can you go on living life? Frustrated you feel. Neglected you are taken for granted. ALONE…MISUNDERSTOOD…UNSURE. How can the emotions of a loss be found without speaking? Tears falling.Faces change, dreams-become vivid memories, angels are seen. Arms are raised. Joy is pain. Eyes tear-filled,non-focus attained. Worries are gone, time stands still. Pictures become fills, eternal love is granted. Time has come and life is everlasting.

In his eyes and you fly.

Ealia Payne
Copyright ©2009 Ealia Payne
03/13/07

R.I.P Grandma Babydoll

Observations


Sometime I like to sit back and people watch. Watch people as they come and as they go in their daily activities. Weather they are driving, walking, talking to their loved ones or just sitting back and smelling the roses.

The other day I made an observation as I was on my lunch break. As I was driving back from good old Chick Fil A I noticed in the car behind me a women crying. You could tell that she was fighting back tears and some tears escaped. She had children in the back of her car and they seemed oblivious to there chauffeurs turmoil. I wondered “what could she be crying about?” The nice in me, wanted to ask her if she was okay. But how could I do this when I don’t even know this woman. She seemed very perplexed over whatever was causing her such emotional distress. Maybe she heard some bad news, or maybe she feared something or someone or maybe she was tired whatever it was it seemed to bother her a lot. The whole time we sat at that red light I was drawn to looking out my rearview mirror to look at this woman. My heart screamed out to help this woman. At last the light turned green and the women whom had cried tears for the last 2 minutes, struggled to wipe her tears enough to see through them to drive. And we drive and she still seemed upset. Within 20 seconds she was no longer behind me but going in the direction of her destination for that of which I will never know.

Just an Observation, with No Meaning. Observing only to observe.

Everyday we make observations into others lives only to realize we will never know what those observations mean nor would we understand them.

Just an Observation.........